this lady started crying on the phone with me at work not because of her bill but because she went blind on her 80th birthday an that shes going def because of this bone illness she has :( i was balling my eyes out poor old lady… she then told me i was a wonderful young lady and that my mom should be very proud of me for being so nice to her and must love me very much i then burst into tears and effed my whole day up because all i wanted after that call was to talk to my mom :( so sad…..

cant believe its aug. time really just flys by.that means 2 months till oct. im really looking forward to halloween i need some fun and excitement in my life, its sad to say work is prob the best part of my day even tho i hate the shit out of it. but yea halloween i always dress up for it cuz god knows i love to have a reason to be sexy or weird. wut to be? i still want to be a sexy body paint my little pony so bad, but kinda want to be slutty and not cute for once something recently has made me want to be bad. its to bad i cant just react on how i feel….. wish i could. i have a lil self control, but oh if this were under different circumstances ;P